familyofalcohol

I come from a family where addiction and alcohol are prominent. Over the 24 years of my life I have seen the ups and downs of having a father and a grand mother who were alcoholics. As of today though, my dad has been sober for 2 months. This is a huge deal for him, he hasn’t gone 2 weeks sober before. I am having issues in my marriage and I decided that I would seek some addition help through a counselor. In my path of rediscovery I had to call my dad. Now I did this of my own free will, to tell him how proud I was of him. After so many years he is finally taking it serious. I have tried to talk to him to tell him that I worry about his health, and his liver failing and after so many of “I am an adult and you don’t need to worry” he has finally taken my concerns to heart. I don’t know how many of you have a parent or family member thats an alcoholic but its devastating to see them slowly kill them selves but its not fun. Its like being a bystander at a bad car accident, there’s nothing you can do but hope and pray that they are OK or will be. He didn’t know what to say when I told him that I was proud of him, but it took a lot of worry off of me. I thought that if he could change his life then I could to, I have a lot longer to live then he unfortunately and hopefully. He made me very unsure of myself growing up and as an adult. He use to tell me things like “Women can’t be trusted as far as you can throw them”, or “You’ll end up barefoot and pregnant”. Now tell me how a young women/ mother is suppose to feel good about herself when thats all you’ve been told. Well I am breaking that cycle and I am going to be the strong independent women I and so many other women are suppose to be. I think that he has realized what he has done to me and my sisters and mother, and for my mother I think it has come to late. She doesn’t love him like she use to and he is taking that hard, especially on top of fight the demon he has. I would love to talk to anyone that has gone through or going through something like this. You are not alone….. Until tomorrow